My Life; Innocence Lost

When I was twenty four I was in a certain city doing military duty. I thought I might try my hand at getting a career started in showbiz so I met some guy who made promises. This was for an adult film Well eitherway I went to the 'studio' and right away I felt something wasn't right. Eitherway they told me to come in and to get undressed and my costar a beautiful girl I was shown a picture of was waiting in the back room. As you know I couldn't wait. Well I got undressed and ran back to the back room. Well next I felt a clunk on my head and I went straight to the floor. When I woke up I was chained to the bed with my hands chained to the head board and my legs spread chained to two posts. Three dudes were standing there naked and wearing masks. Oh the camera was there ready to film all of the action. Well the first guy climbed on top of me and shoved his dang cock into me! I screamed bloody murder and finally one of the other guys came over and gagged me with some red ball with a rope attached. He finally came inside me and I could feel it running down my ass with what I later found to be blood. Well they took their turns fucking me and cumming inside me, and then when they finished they sat down to watch the video and laugh at my discomfort. They made me watch too giving me pointers on how I could make my performance  better. After that all three of them fucked me again (I just can't bring myself to use the R word, which really what it was) then they dragged me off the bed took me down these stairs and hustled me into a car. They dropped me off butt naked on some side of town til I was picked up by the police and charged with indecent exposure. The only good but bad part of this is I begged them not to tie me up again. I promised I wouldn't be a problem and would do whatever they said. so if you run across the video, and it seems like I'm smiling and having a good time, know I was threatened with something horrible if I didn't cooperate. How humiliating it was walking down the street butt naked with jizz leaking out of my ass.  The news was all over the base and I was mortified.  Needless to say it was a horrible night. Well that video is probably making it's rounds still somewhere and I've just learned to live with it. So I wouldn't be so embarrassed by it, I became purposely involved with a guy and demanded we make videos and I even passed some out so as to minimize my shame.lol.  Just couldn't deal with the fact that I had gotten set up good and couldn't defend myself. I got the idea from Madonna. So you'll probably run across some. Don't try to blackmail me if you do coz I'll have some others made one day. No I never thought of myself as gay but  this is what happened. Eitherway I was involved with a guy for about five years and when we broke up I was sad coz' I'd actually started to really care about him. I saw him again about three years ago and just for old time sakes we spent the night together.lol He came so hard inside me I hate to admit it just excited me. It took almost an hour for it to all drip out after we were finished(after about four sessions) and time for him to clean me out.  He was happy, and admittedly so was I.
I tried to pass this off as a made up story but it happened. I put this out coz' of all this coming forward by women about things that happened to them in the distant past. I know a lot of them would disagree with me, their emotions are a wreck, but nobody went to jail for wht they did to me. I never found out who did it and my advice to them is to move on. Destroying these men's lives, if these stories are true will solve nothing, except maybe increase the murder rate so that they don't have to worry about their victims coming back to testify. and then we truly have no way of knowing that these charges are true. They probably are but I still believe you should have substantive evidence to convict a person of a crime. Unless they have a video, some pictures, witnesses, or some police reports or something They really should have just kept quiet about it. Now the next soceiopaths out there doing these kind of things, they will kill their victims, or if they're rich like these guys are, will have them killed. Somtimes, shit happens and you just have to be thankful they didn't kill you too.